Hi everyone, I hope you are all keeping well.
just a quick post today. I have not been on for quite a few weeks now as I have not been in the best of health. I was getting myself all prepared to go back to work after a LONG time off on the sick with severe depression, when I woke up one day with an achy back. I suffer from a prolapsed disk, and several degraded disks, which I think the specialist classes as Degenerative Disc Disease. So anyway, it got worse and worse on this episode, that at one point I screamed the house down in pain while sitting on the loo. Not a nice experience let me tell you. After that, I basically ended up bed bound for about 6 weeks until I was able to stand and support my own weight. I was in so much pain, I couldn’t even face the easy task of using the laptop. I just couldn’t function properly, mentally wise, due to the pain. I am so sick of this happening every so often. Every time, it adds to the worry that I could end up losing my job over it. They have told me they cannot operate as there is too much degradation in my disks that it will not take the pain away, and could even make it worse. so basically I am stuck with it and just loading myself with very strong pain killers for the rest of my life. I can deal with being disabled to some extent, but the pain is getting too much now.
Those lovely people at ATOS have turned me down for help in the past, when my sick pay ran out at work. Also the local council turned me down for a blue badge parking permit because I could walk too far, despite being in chronic pain and hunched over and shuffling along at a snails pace like some old man. Non of the governing bodies seen to want to offer support.
I have even gone so far as to invest in a wheelchair out of my own money, so as least when I’m in too much pain to walk, I may be able to get out of the house with my family.
I have an MRI scan today to see if it has got worse over the last couple of years. It feels like it has. I’ll let you know.
But thats me done for now. I just thought I would pop in and keep you updated.
Take care everyone.