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I am a normal ( in the loosest possible term) Dad from the North East of England. I have a few interests such as BTCC Touring Cars, Football, photography. My favourite hobby though is to just relax and chill out. I suffer from stress, depression and anxiety and possible PTSD. I am coming to terms with it these days where its not something I need to hide from people or be ashamed of. I also suffer from chronic back problems and live each day in pain in varying degrees. I am the sort of person that wants good for other people and always tries to help if I can. I can be really soft natured and sensitive, which sometimes surprises people when they meet me.

First day at Haggerston Castle

Arrived at Haggerston Castle caravan park to blazing sunshine. It was nice to relax after the stress of packing and getting sorted. The caravan we have rented is amazing. It’s like a house inside. A good size living room, a nice kitchen, a bedroom with 2 beds for G and a doble bedroom for myself and D with an en-suite. Even before unpacking we had a cup of tea on the decking and enjoyed the peace and quiet.
At night we went to the show bar and watched a live band who sung loads of 80s song so I loved that. I was singing my head off. The reps did a little show called party in the dark. Basically the lights were turned down and all the kids danced with their light up toys and glowsticks that they had bought while the reps danced on stage dressed head to foot in glowed items like flashing wigs, flashing glasses and necklaces etc. It looked really good seeing all the lights moving around. The cynical side of me couldn’t help but think that it was a good scam to get the kids to buy these toys to join in the dance.
All in all, a good first day was had by all at Haggerston. Georgia slept like a log. D and I didn’t have the best night sleep due to the type of mattress on the bed. But still, nice to be here.
This is the view from our decking. Georgia was feeding ducks this morning.

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Just been to the docs for G’s sore foot. Looks like she just has a case of tendinitis. She’s been given given a course of medicine to take for 2 weeks. Glad it’s not a plaster cast job.

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Just before our hols

A few days before our holiday and I am having to take G to the doctors to have her foot looked at. Over the last few days she’s been complaining of a shooting pain on the underside of her foot. None of us can think of when or where she hurt it. Let’s hope that it doesn’t turn into a trip to the X-ray unit as well or worse still, a plaster cast. She, actually all of us would be gutted for her as she is so looking forward to her hols.
I will keep you updated.

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Day off today with D and G which doesn’t happen often enough. I’m glad it’s a sunny day so far.
Can’t wait for pay day tomorrow. I can’t remember the last time I was so skint. It’s a horrible feeling not being able to do the things you enjoy.
It’s now only 11 days till our holiday. We are of to stay in a caravan. It’s the first time we have done it but it’s been recommended by a few of our friends. There loads for G to do there and loads of places to visit. I no doubt be taking loads of photos while away.

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Update on my Son

As you may remember from posts a while ago we had problems with my son J. Well things have certainly hit the fan this time.
About 2 weeks ago we received a message from his now ex girlfriend saying that she had received 205 sms in one hour from him. Obviously she wasn’t happy about this. It needed to be stopped. It was just the same message over and over again.
We were also made aware of a Facebook message from him that he was sick of his life (or words to that effect) and that he would be around the next day.
The next day, I made numerous phone calls on his behalf trying to get info about his right and what to do as he was soon to be made homeless. I text him the details and phone numbers to contact. No reply. D also tried ringing him. No answer. So due to that and the messages from Facebook we decided we had no option but to ring the police. For all we knew, he could have been lying dead in his flat.
The Police could not find him and turned up at our house for info after being given incorrect info by their control room that it was us that had received the 205 sms. We corrected them and told them the full story about what had been happening in the past and present to the best of our knowledge.
They then visited J’s ex while the search for J continued in his area. They eventually found him and had words and gave a warning about harassing his ex. Within an hour he had text his ex again, just the once but with a message that could be interpreted as a threat. She immediately rang the police who once again spoke to her then went and seen him and this time, she has taken an injunction out against him. She was too frightened to even go to work for a couple of days.
We have in the past said to her, that if he continued, an injunction may be the best option.
Since then J sent me a few nasty text. D had a blazing text argument with him and she didn’t hold back much. She was so annoyed at the messages he sent me, his dad. I too was annoyed at the messages he was sending D during their argument that I was close to going to see him face to face but D stopped me.
He seems to blame me and D for his ex getting the injunction, saying that we told her to. He also seems to be so angry that he believes we have taken her side completely in this.
We have done loads for him and tried to help him and advise him but even though he may agree and promise not to do certain thing, he goes and does them anyway.
He has since removed and blocked me on Facebook and before doing that he changed his surname form mine back to his mother’s maiden name. Bearing in mind, he cannot stand his mother or her family, I think this is an attempt to wind me up. He also changed his mam and dad to some people I have never even heard of. This to me is a bit confusing. He is basically denying I am his dad but also making himself look silly.
I have not heard from him in over a week now and as it stands at the moment, I have no intentions of contacting him. The whole thing has been so stressful and upsetting I didn’t sleep properly for a good few days.

Fab and liberating day

Last Friday, D and I had the day to ourselves which is a rarity.
Once we had watched our daughter playing trumpet in a school show we were free. We went to a beachside cafe to sample the sausage and bacon sandwiches that we had heard so much about from friends. They were so tasty. And the coffee was lovely as well.
From there we set off to a local beach to sunbathe and relax. The beach in question is about 3 mile long and part of it is unofficially a nudist beach. We decided to give this a go seeing as we were feeling adventurous. The part of the beach for nudists is very quiet, only the occasional couple walking past with their dogs. No one bothered that we were naked. It felt very liberating. The feeling of the light breeze blowing round our bodies was so nice and relaxing.
Where we sat was at the back of the beach next to the dunes. We both to the opportunity to walk naked down to the waters edge which was about 100yards from us. This was a big step for both of us, more so for D who is a bit self conscious. It was amazing seeing her walk down to the water. This was a major thing for her and I am so proud of her for doing it.
We stayed there for at least 4 hours and enjoyed every single minute of it and didn’t want to put our clothes on after it.
I would recommend anyone to try it, even once. Its such a good feeling.