Well my cold has been getting worse over the last few days resulting in me virtually losing my voice last night and today and having loads of phlegm ( I know, its a yuk subject ) I am left today feeling like crap. Apart from feeling rough, today is a hard day for other reasons. Today would of been the 74th birthday of my Dad who passed away on the 14th July this year. I still miss him so much. As much as I did the day he left us. Its still hard to get my head around the fact that in the space of less than two years, I lost my whole family. My brother in Aug 2011, my Mam in Jan 2013 and then my Dad in July 2013. Its no wonder that I am so mentally screwed up at the moment. Its taken since July till about 2 weeks ago just to finish clearing their house to hand it back to the council, so Ive not had much of a chance to grieve. One day I hope I can find it in myself to grieve. These last two years have been so hectic that I have just held everything in to the point I can’t let go. One day hopefully, one day.